ALHAMDULLILAH (:

Besides of my tears, there is also a thing that trying to make me smile again (: Yaa my final's result. Alhamdullilah, syukur. Fuhh I passed all papers with cgpa 3.42. 2A's and 3B's. I noe many of my friends probaly get higher cgpa then me, congrats guys. :DD Its okay, I just thanking god fer the gift I got from my effort fer final. But I noe I must put many effort to get more higher pointer fer next sem. Wish me luck guys.

xoxo, Eyntan

HURT.

I hate love pain. Its totally hurt. Sumpah it was. How could you do this to me? I can't stand anymore. I da sangat sangat tak tahan. Sangat hurt. You ta penah pikir apa yang you cakap, apa you buat kat I. I ada perasaan. I bukan patung.  I rasa you memang da ta suka I. And macam I ni memang ta sesuai dengan you like what you said "your ex are much much better than me" kan? Good now I noe I ni gf paling ta guna. Thanks fer everything. Idk what to say anymore, but I hope you will never forget our memories together and how I sacrifice a lot just fer you. I love you the most but you hurt me more than it. Thankyou. Really appreciate what you have done to me. And all the things we share together. 

I hope no more sad thing to be tears after this. Result final what I mean.

OH GOD PLEASE GIVE ME A STRENGTH

Today is 30102009. Im writing this entry while YM-ing with Eiqa and Imran. Thanks guys fer chilling me when I really really need some one.  

IDK laa maybe because of the very many of pressure and thingy and I think, its make me down. I cried fer a couple of days this holidays. 

Ya I have made my decision. I can't stand anymore. I dah sangat tak tahan. But I felt guilty. IDK laa but from what have happen from all the way I think I should do it. But I still wanna give one chance. Cause Im into it now. Oh god please help me :(

I was so nervous waiting fer a Final's result tomorrow. Really really. Oh may Allah bless me. Amin (:

And and I was afraid of one thing. Oh please say it not true. Please please ! Intan thinks postive.

Ya financial probs. I really stuck bebeh. Adui Im half dead right now.

Is anyone with me now?

I hope I got the answer fer the probs.

LIST BARANG

Today sudah hari Khamis. Khamis malam Jumaat. So tinggal esok jelah nak beli barang siket then nak balek Muadzam sudah Sabtu ni. Maybe esok aku pergi beli barang alone la kut. Na ajak sape je kat BP ni. Adilah kerja pulak. Esok nak pergi Summit laa. Kali ni tak shopping apa apa pon. Seriously takda duit la adui and tak buleh demand nak macam macam cos im a troublemaker, 

List barang yang aku nak beli esok just :

-Cleanser muka

-Eyeliner, foundation muka

-Kasut maybe?

-Sabun basuh baju (Downy)

-Ribenna

-Chocolate

-Maggy

-Testpad

-Payung

-Ubat gigi, sabun mandi, shampoo (toiletries)

-Minyak rambut

Itu jela kot Adui duit ayah bagi ta banyak. Camne lah nak bajet bajet ni. Iskk sedih je kot. All myfault laa kalu tak tada jadi macam ni. Maybe groceries beli kat Muadzam jelah nanti. Lagipun banyak gila da barang na bawak balik Muadzam. Takut ta muat kereta. HEE 

Btw, I miss my boyfie. Hanif when you want to go back to Malaysia sayang? I miss you. 

LEPAK (:

Hm I just back home. Tadi lepak kat Ramlee kat BPWALK dengan Faiq, Burn, Radin, and Wafi. HAHA kesian I tade kawan en so lepak la dengan kawan kawan lama Faiq and Burn, my bestfriend. Agak segan la kut sorang girl. But Faiq pandai je nak hilangkan malu I. Thanks weh. And best lepak dengan kaorang (:

HOLIDAY.

Holiday is running out. Just about two days like that and Im going back to Muadzam Shah tercinta. HAHA :p At first Im missing Muadzam but now I feel so sad wanna leave my Batu Pahat. Haiyo why must I feeling like that ya? But but whatever it is I miss my bff and beloved bf there Hanif. Can't wait to see you sayang. Missing you like crazy.

*Adilah and myself

My holiday be so boring this time. I don't have money to chilling around and shopping. Don't have friends to hangout with. But luckily I have Adilah (: I spent my holiday by staying at home. Online-ing, sleeping, eating, watching tv. What a really bored holiday this time. I hate this holiday. -___-

Btw I thought about wanna lepak with Adilah, Carl and Ayien fer Sheesha on Saturday night. But I don't think we can make it cause Im allready going back to Muadzam on Saturday morning. How sad can't meet Ayien fer a long long time since raya. :( Miss you Ayien. *Ayien and myself

Oh yaa two days left and Im not yet settle packing the stuff. Lazy lols. But I will make sure on Friday morning I have to settle it so I can go for Sheesha with Adilah and Carl at night (:

I wanna go out later at 2pm. Wanna do some treatment fer my hair. My hair sucks. And Faiq ajak lepak this evening dengan Burn jugak. Tengok dulu ya encik Faiq Hilmi if I can make it. Btw segan lol na meet you. HAHA hm when will Im going fer shopping ni? Not shopping actually. Just buy some groceries and toiletries I guess. And and payung too. HAHA hopefully this night or tomorrow night. I dont want to make it last minute cause it will make me so clumsy lol later.

Err I worry bout my final result too doe. It will come out on Saturday which I heard from rumours. Oh Allah, may you bless me. *praying

*My beloved boyfie, Muhammad Hanif (:

And ya, Im missing you boyfriend. How are you there? Do you miss me as well? Or it just me who missing you? Im pretty sure you having fun there right now. Please la go back to Malaysia asap okay sayang? I miss you. And I want you to go back at Muadzam on Saturday too. Please baby. How I wish you read this sayang. Damn, I miss you lol. And and I love you sayang. Takecare there in Singapore. See you soon sayang.

Okayla, I wanna go fer a shower right now. I wanna go out. Doing my hair treatment.
Till then, assalamualaikum (:

I MISS YOU HANIF.

Today Anep pegy Singapore rumah uncle dia. Da masuk sempadan Singapore I guess thats why text ta reply. Imissyou Hanif. Sumpah I rindu gila. He gonna be there until Friday. OMG ! Lama gila kot. How if I miss you sayang? Grr I can't live doe without you. I can't text him or even call. Mahal ouh charge there. Damn takecare there sayang. Iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou. And I really miss you sayang :( Do roger me asap if you in Malaysia okay.

Love, Eyntan.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAKAK ICHA :D

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H A P P Y   1 9-th   B I R T H D A Y !

Yippie !!!

Happy Birthday to Aryzah Qamalia a.k.a Akak Icha. Happy 19th birthday.

May Allah bless you kakak and hope you happy always. (:

I love you kakak and I missing you like hell lols.

Wishing all your dreams come true and a very very goodluck in whatever you do kakak.

Be strong and I noe you can. 

Lastly, I'll never ever forget you. I love you I love you I love you. :D

HEARTLESS.

Dont you ever thinking bout my heartfeeling? Do you know how hurt am I? Do you know how much I love you? Do you know how proud am I to be your gf? But... Why you treat me like this Muhammad Hanif? I know Im not perfect. Im not a girl that a guy want most. But why you treat me like this? You really really make me so dissapointed. You make me so heartless. I know you dont even love me. Good to know that now. Time to show a true color. Thanks fer what you have did to me. I willl never ever forget bout it. You make my heart broken. You make me useless. You make me down. 

As what you wish, you will see that a GOOD GIRL GONE BAD. Mark my word Muhammad Hanif bin Norazmi. (:

IF I CAN REPEAT BACK,

If I can repeat back all the parts of time Im doing mistakes, how thankfull am I.

If I can repeat back all the parts of time Im doing mistakes, I'll never do the same mistake.

If I can repeat back all the parts of time Im doing mistakes, I'll thinking so rationally before do it.

If I can repeat back all the parts of time Im doing mistakes, I'll think about the risk I can get if I do it.

If I can repeat back all the parts of time Im doing mistakes, I'll correct it.

If I can repeat all the time back, Oh God how gratefull am I.

Fuhh ! Now I am so regret. Yeah, really REGRET. But it seems like nothing I can do cause all the things have happened. I will never can repeat back the time. I am so sad. Thinking bout my life is so so useless. I am so stupid. STUPID! I wanna repeat back to that time. Oh God help me ! :(

I'm so sorry fer being so useless right now.

I got my lessons, "Times will never ever being repeated".

--THE END